Last night in a bit of a stupor.. I found myself taking truly trashy pictures of myself. I started purposefully editing pictures to make me look about as ugly as possible. I thought it would be interesting to take old family photos, and edit the images based on the concept and not aesthetic. These are some of the photos I edited.
You can click on them separately to make the nice and big.

My teeth were bleeding.

HEFFALUMPS & WOOZLES.

HEFFALUMPS & WOOZLES

This shit scared me then and I think it scares me more now, but sort of nicely inspirational.

Gary Hill-Figuring Grounds

Some inspiration for my core final

Only words and conventions can isolate us from the entirely undefinable something which is everything, Alan Watts.

When thinking about specific projects I want to create my "dream scenario" it is the thing that I would do if there were no flaws and I could produce it in my time with what equipment I felt necessary. So far my "dream scenario" has come together and we shall see what really comes of it. I also wanted to post that I want to edit and play the song dumb by nirvana. It is a reference to a scene where people listened to music to get anger and fears out, the song also mimics this idea by looking at society as a group of people pretending. I am infatuated by this idea, because I know as a part of a community I too do things that make me more acceptable. It is a struggle for humans to find the spot where and when they can become themselves but still be admired.

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Or maybe just happy

Think I'm just happy 

My heart is broke
But I have some glue
Help me inhale
And mend it with you
We'll float around
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And have a hangover ... 
Have a hangover 

Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
The soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb

Think I'm just happy 
I think I'm dumb 

Yesterday we listened to several seniors talk about their artwork. Specifically looking at students who have used collaboration and/or multiple mediums to come to a conclusion in their work.
Juan Franco, a Junior really inspired me. He takes his art forms very seriously because his concepts are very serious. I think many times I try not to talk about my art in terms of being legitimate or serious for the fact that, talking about what it actually means to me is a very private experience. I think it would be good to get into the habit of representing my work the way that it should be represented, because there will be respect in it from me and I hope others. Looking at Juan's work also makes me want to really get into my own and really show what needs to be shown, not making everything so symbolic and wishy washy. Besides all this I noticed a few other things that I really enjoyed, his use of documentation. The documentation that he used, was highly manipulated by other people through a collaborative effort. This manipulation, could change the outcome of the piece, or could change the viewers outcome of him as the object.
Sam Whalen, a senior has a knack for creating a space for people to be a part of. In this she too is manipulating how people feel when possibly looking at a specific piece within the space. Lists seem to be a way of documenting her work on her website and that really intrigued me. It ties in with her performance of rituals nicely and has the frankness of her either found or keepsake objects that bring character into her performances.
Terry, a senior had some really beautifully vague pieces that left the mind going. Taking photos of the glass gave way to pictures that looked nothing like each other. Although they had no physical resemblance they all took me to a place of ambiguity on a cellular or astronomical level that played very nicely together.