I know it has been done before, but I think for this summer I want to try using plexi glass and acrylic paint together to make an image, having several layers. I think it would be simple and not much of a hassle if I did it the right way. I know I could make slots in a frame to put each row in but creating those slots with zero tools will be impossible.

On another note, I talked to one of my teacher's about what to be working on this summer. She sort of placed a prompt into my head to be blogging about other artist's I see during the summer. I do not know if I want to be an "artist" but I think I would love to help other people's art in several ways and this would be a nice thing to start.

genius, closely related to the concept of a creative force, suggests some kind of transcendent reality, placing the artist on a higher plane, above other people, where his work does not need to be understood.

 Last night in a bit of a stupor.. I found myself taking truly trashy pictures of myself. I started purposefully editing pictures to make me look about as ugly as possible. I thought it would be interesting to take old family photos, and edit the images based on the concept and not aesthetic. These are some of the photos I edited.
You can click on them separately to make the nice and big.

My teeth were bleeding.

HEFFALUMPS & WOOZLES.

HEFFALUMPS & WOOZLES

This shit scared me then and I think it scares me more now, but sort of nicely inspirational.

Gary Hill-Figuring Grounds

Some inspiration for my core final

Only words and conventions can isolate us from the entirely undefinable something which is everything, Alan Watts.

When thinking about specific projects I want to create my "dream scenario" it is the thing that I would do if there were no flaws and I could produce it in my time with what equipment I felt necessary. So far my "dream scenario" has come together and we shall see what really comes of it. I also wanted to post that I want to edit and play the song dumb by nirvana. It is a reference to a scene where people listened to music to get anger and fears out, the song also mimics this idea by looking at society as a group of people pretending. I am infatuated by this idea, because I know as a part of a community I too do things that make me more acceptable. It is a struggle for humans to find the spot where and when they can become themselves but still be admired.

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Or maybe just happy

Think I'm just happy 

My heart is broke
But I have some glue
Help me inhale
And mend it with you
We'll float around
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And have a hangover ... 
Have a hangover 

Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
The soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb

Think I'm just happy 
I think I'm dumb 

Yesterday we listened to several seniors talk about their artwork. Specifically looking at students who have used collaboration and/or multiple mediums to come to a conclusion in their work.
Juan Franco, a Junior really inspired me. He takes his art forms very seriously because his concepts are very serious. I think many times I try not to talk about my art in terms of being legitimate or serious for the fact that, talking about what it actually means to me is a very private experience. I think it would be good to get into the habit of representing my work the way that it should be represented, because there will be respect in it from me and I hope others. Looking at Juan's work also makes me want to really get into my own and really show what needs to be shown, not making everything so symbolic and wishy washy. Besides all this I noticed a few other things that I really enjoyed, his use of documentation. The documentation that he used, was highly manipulated by other people through a collaborative effort. This manipulation, could change the outcome of the piece, or could change the viewers outcome of him as the object.
Sam Whalen, a senior has a knack for creating a space for people to be a part of. In this she too is manipulating how people feel when possibly looking at a specific piece within the space. Lists seem to be a way of documenting her work on her website and that really intrigued me. It ties in with her performance of rituals nicely and has the frankness of her either found or keepsake objects that bring character into her performances.
Terry, a senior had some really beautifully vague pieces that left the mind going. Taking photos of the glass gave way to pictures that looked nothing like each other. Although they had no physical resemblance they all took me to a place of ambiguity on a cellular or astronomical level that played very nicely together.

My sculpture pieces and their inspired piece.

Last Thursday we went to first thursday and I had a much better experience than the first time because there were not as many people and I just enjoyed the art more. My favorite artist by far was Jody Joldersma. Her art was dark yet playful and had a strong sense of narrative. There was so much information and detail in her pieces. I loved her intimate dioramas and her sculptures of animals, acting as humans do.
Jody Jolsderma's Art

Thinking about a collab with my friend in the theatre department:
 it would be us in a room created by us, sitting at a table with all the basic ideal things, then standing up, all the while reciting a poem (below) while walking close to the camera. once we are done with the poem we would then place the masks that are similar to the one i created for my garment prosthesis, take our clothes off (i don't like this idea necessarily but i feel that it needs to be done or something of the sort) and then go batshit all over our little room breaking everything and probably just being as animalistic as possible. once we were done, we would take the masks off and recreate the scene almost like a mosaic, and sort of put it back to the way it was in all of its pieces. i have been interested in freudian theory and i feel that this is a way to show our minds fighting with ourselves.
This is a rough idea for the poem:
take walls down
in this sound
running far
and you run further
look at ourselves
in opposite directions
we are taking to space
in rooms of gold
look at my face
trying to shape the mold
of his bright hue
and say fuck off to the sky
while inside
and kick the dirt below
right in your eye
so you can pour tears that make you the one that died
steal the water that makes you glow
until its going
along with your breath
and your heavy steps showing
whats deep inside
like the shit you rubbed before
its rolling down
you're heavy and alive
ripping walls
with hands of gold
and the tears are the part of me
that blur what i won't see

Listening to Jonas on Thursday this week was very controversial for me. I enjoyed his art aesthetically and conceptually. It made sense to me that he had an obsession with creating space and recreating space to fit his needs which I really enjoyed and understood. When it came to questions though, it seemed that articulating what he felt through words was not what I was getting through his images. I cannot tell if his art was lying to us or if he was and that was frustrating to me that he would not let himself be vulnerable in a simple college lecture. Also as a side note, I hope for my own health that if I ever became a rich and famous painter (I am not betting on it) that I will not make art just because the guy that gives me money tells me so. It's his art and he should own it. (although I guess I'm not the rich and famous one so what can I say.)

Last Week Rob Spoke to us in our Core class for a lecture, I enjoyed him talking to us about his struggles with art and finding the difference between how he perceives his art to be and how others perceive his art. I believe that creating art is a process for the artist, but the outcome should be a part of the artist to give to others, so I thought his points were interesting on that. I loved the way he dived into a medium, and even if some were not what he thought would come of them, he still learned as much as he could to create what he needed from the medium. I believe that using certain medium will solve certain concepts, and have found several this year that have enhanced my art form.

Better Than Me

^^^^^^^^^^^^
Please watch this.
I am currently obsessing over this video, it is absolutely breathtaking, I have to try this somehow. I feel like using this MRI scan would be a beautiful and familiar way of portraying what I feel I need to say. If anyone has any advice on how to turn this into a project, in any medium please let me know.